Coming out of the closet

| June 8, 2011 | 3 Comments

For the most part I’m not a hoarder, but right now I can’t walk into my walk-in closet. It’s not that bad … things don’t tumble out when I open the door. But it’s time to purge. My risk is two-fold: “what to do” and “what not to do.”  “What to do” is deciding what [...]

Whole Lotta Riskin’ Goin’ On

After blogging here for over a year, I’ve come to a few conclusions: You can’t work with, hang with or converse much with Laura Biering without some riskiness rubbing off on you. Risk is integral to the larger picture of living a conscious life and that knowledge, for me at least, is what makes risking [...]

Nothing New

| March 7, 2011 | 1 Comments

Today I risk admitting that I haven’t taken any new risks lately. I haven’t made any visible progress on making more money.  I haven’t been singing much since my exciting recital last summer.  My goals are in hibernation.  I finished a couple of projects, so I’m just living my life, trying to get to the [...]

Always Learning

| February 23, 2011 | 2 Comments

The other night I played Monopoly with my daughter.  She’s a ruthless Monopoly player:  on her first trip around the board she buys everything she can.  As long as she has money, she buys property.  As soon as she has a monopoly, she starts buying houses.  She doesn’t quit developing her property until she has [...]

I don’t know what the headline should be this time . . .

| January 31, 2011 | 5 Comments

The life I’m living right now and the place I find myself right now aren’t feeling very good.  Even as I write that, I know that life itself IS good, it’s just not feeling very good to be in the place space in which I find myself right now.  Why?  Because I don’t know what I want [...]

New Ventures

| January 23, 2011 | 2 Comments

I am in the process of finding new ways to work in the world.  I’m exploring career changes, making discoveries about how to use my skills in new ways, and making a commitment to earn more money. Lately I’ve risked contacting people I don’t know to ask about their work.  What if they resent the [...]

The Same Old Question

| January 7, 2011 | 3 Comments

Why don’t I make more money? I ask myself this question every couple of years, and I always come up with the same reasonable answers: My field, non-profit live theatre, doesn’t pay well financially.  The personal rewards of doing good work in this field are huge, but there’s no money in it. My family means a [...]

Dropping the Ball

| October 23, 2010 | 3 Comments

OMG I forgot to blog. I know in advance that I am forgiven, so I’m not even going to pretend to obsess about this.  I know that all of you understand how it feels when you drop the ball.  Right now, my life is a like game of catch.  Most days, the ball is winding [...]

Silencing the Voices in My Head

| October 7, 2010 | 5 Comments

There they are again … those voices in my head that want to drag me down.   They’ve been showing up a lot lately, tormenting me with hateful questions and comments like: Who am I fooling? Who do I think I am, thinking I could ever accomplish something like that? Why would anyone listen to ME? What makes ME [...]

Water Wings & Cheerleaders

| April 26, 2010 | 2 Comments

My usual blog day is the 15th, and my last entry was titled Swim or Sink. At that time, I was curled up in a fetal position, drifting in an ocean of tension and distress,  depressed, terrified, lonely, and feeling my available choices were really no choices at all.  Afraid of drowning emotionally, I reached [...]