My risk today is just being here. The past two months, I’ve simply forgotten to write my post and when I finally did remember, I must admit, after stewing for a time I blew it off. The month prior to that, I wrote something that I later felt compelled to take down.
So, this month, I’m committed to just showing up. It’s 2:00 a.m. (when I originally penned this), my head hurts, I can’t sleep and I’m completely uninspired. Yet, when I couldn’t find my notebook (yes, I have to write longhand before transcribing to the computer), I couldn’t rest. I kept looking until I found something with a clean page.
It feels good. I’ll hold onto this commitment to myself as I just “show up” to other things, even if I feel dry and empty.
Postscript: I wrote this original post last night. But tonight, as Laura was launching her “Be You Out Loud” program, she talked about risk and reward. This risk may seem small by some standards, but even it carries rewards. The reward of not feeling guilty. Not disappointing someone/myself. The reward of accomplishment.
It feels good.
Janet K. Carter is a creative and versatile marketing professional with fifteen years experience in marketing/marketing operations. She is currently seeking opportunities for meaningful employment with an organization where her skills and experience will be put to work towards improving environmental and/or social conditions. Connect with Janet at LinkedIn.
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Good reminder, Janet, of the power and beauty of simply showing up. Sometimes it’s about showing up for someone or something else… and sometimes it’s about showing up for our own selves.
I’m glad you told us what you are feeling about this “blogging the risk” business Janet and please know you are not alone. And you are missed when you are absent from the page!
Oh, Janet – this is so true – that every intentional risk, no matter how small we label it, comes with rewards when we pursue it and then allow ourselves to receive the reward. Thank you for “hanging on” to this commitment, and your vulnerable and honest sharing about your process. What a gift!