The end of a regular paycheck is nearing.  At the end of this month I will no longer have an employer but will be working for myself making pottery and building websites.  I’m excited, exhilarated, overjoyed, and scared shitless.  I’ve been selling my art for many months now, people like it and seem to be fine giving me money for it.   That always makes me feel great.  I have been self employed in the past and I did not starve, I know how to run a business.  I have lots of support from loved ones in more ways than I can count.  For this I am grateful.  I recite my positive affirmations many times a day, and I usually believe them.  I’m even really looking forward to not being required to go to an office and look busy all day.  So many odds are in my favor yet I’m still afraid of failing.  When I was in college I had a back up plan, I’d get my teaching certificate so I could have a steady paycheck.  I’d teach ceramics and then sell my pottery when school was out.  The reality is that I would probably have done like most people and work my regular job then try to enjoy life after work hours.  I actually left school, drove around the country in a Pinto and then went and got a job.  So I’ve been avoiding this career move, into something that I love for many years.  Why?  I guess I’ve been afraid to fail at something I love so much.  On March 26th I will start risking failing or succeeding at my art full time.  I’m determined to succeed despite my fear.  I’ll let you know how it’s working out.

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Lori Buff is a successful artist and website designer from East Atlanta Village where she lives with her partner and five dogs. Lori enjoys working in the garden, riding motorcycles and doing volunteer work but when she's not busy running around, she can be found engrossed in a good book.
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